2day..sick..mc..ytd went c doc..slight fever, cough, throat..lolx..now i gt 6 pills 2 eat =, 3 times a day..haha..den got mc frm pe whole wk..lolx..2day stay at home rush hw..but alot dno how do..lolx..die..haha..so sianz..aniwaes, thanx xj 4 e psp..haha..hmm..dno wad 2 type le lehz..medicine makin mi groggy..lolx..time 2 mug again..
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i tink e prob is fixed..hopefully..lolx..so weird..haha..hmm..so sianz at home..haha..oh ya..lolx..4got 2 intro..lolx..my new meix..haha..charis..lolx..so honored..her 1st s'porean bro..e rest all swiss..haha..lalalax..lame...lolx...
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so sianz..smthng wrong wif my blog..trying 2 figure out wads..
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2day got 4d outing..i cant go..haish..so sads..ve fun guys..lolx..hmm..my parents keep pressurizing mi 2 go nj..lolx..i dno how..lolx..so sad..i dno if i wanna go mahx..lolx..i lik ac le..haha.haish..so boring..nth 2 do..lalalax..hmm..i shld go edit my og blogskin..lolx..
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wanted 2 share dis but keep 4getting..is a poem by one of e creative writing t'chers in my sch..
roses are red,
violets are blue,
sugar is sweet,
so are you!
but...
the roses have withered,
the violets are dead,
the sugarbowl's empty,
and so is ur head!!
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saw u again 2dae..why??haish..do u intend 2 nt let mi 4get u?or is god playing a fool of us?haish..wed tessa asked mi.."y u lik nt sad liddat.."haish..shld i b?its juz my exterior..i dun look sad..but im bleeding inside..wad other choice do i ve den 2 put up wif it & put on a brave frnt?wad other option do i ve when dere's nobody?nobody dat i could really tok 2..haish..i might look nonchalant on de outside..but it really hurts so bad..i miz her so much..but dere was nth i could do..haish..all i could do was juz quietly wish dat it'll all go away..haish..its onli fair 2 her..its her choice, her decision & if she's really happy den i ve nth 2 say but 2 wish her all e best..aniwae, tessa, i am sad..i am veh sad..
--may all da pain go away..
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been trying 2 4get u..its been nearly a mth now..e mth as passed by relatively quickly..being bz in sch has helped wif it..emotionally & physically..been 2 tired 4 most of e days..2 tired 4 e lonliness 2 creep bak in..u nt appearing within my sight has helped alot..juz when i tot dat i might really get over u..u appear again..why??why ve i been bumping in2 u where-eva i go dis past 2 days?why?haish..i drop my head & pretend nt 2 c u..or turn ard..but i cant hide..haish..da lonliness is coming bak..juz when i was staring 2 feel free...
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ytd so shuang..haha..hmm..went 2 je wif xuan, yini & zhiji eat dinner @ je..lolx..started off badly..lik nobody go liddat..lolx..den i abit de sads..lolx..but in e end was ok..lolx..da shuang part..was oso a veh refreshing & liberating moment..went 2 iceskatin ring..juz sit down & dian ge..lolx..brings bak memories..lolx..used 2 go dere wheneva i was feeling down & do e same..lolx..managed 2 sort out my tots..lolx..felt so free..hopes it lasts dis time..den walk home dat time..strong wind..slight drizzle..veh shuang..lolx..felt so relaxed..so free..plz set mi free..i dun wanna live in memories no more..hope dis liberating feeling lasts..so free..
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haish..so sads..lolx..my parents & my sis again..nobody bothers abt mi..they go abt doing their own stuff..nobody even listens 2 mi, my suggestions..or even care abt how i feel my parents are lik super biased 2wards my big fat obnoxious sis..my mum esp..haish..den my sis is super irritating..her incessant nagging..wads worse is dat she always gets her way..its so unfair..when nobody even bothers abt mi..wad i wan..how i feel..
all dis didnt use 2 bother mi..i had somebody i could confide in..somebody dat would listen 2 mi..sayang mi..comfort mi..someone that would hold my hand & giv it a re-assuring squeeze.. someone who would give mi a tight hug..and make all dis go away..haish..buts dat all in e past..looks lik i ve 2 learn 2 put up wif dis all by myself again..put up wif my big fat obnoxious sis..my biased parents..haish..
--depressed...
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haish..so sad..juz got scolded by my parent 4 telling them i wanna buy a crumpler..lolx..they say veh exp..96 or 136..veh nice lorhz..e 96 de looks more affordable 4 mi..lolx..veh nice ritex?haha..but my parents dun allow mi buy..say veh exp..lolx..den dere's e 136 de..but de 96 de looks nicer lehz..haha..haish..cnt buy..so sad..wadeva..giv up le bahx..haha..hope mayb my bdae can ask them buy..lolx..
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And as I look into your eyes
I see an angel in disguise
Sent from God above
For me to love
To hold and idolise
And as I hold your body near
I'll see this month through to a year
And then forever on
Til life is gone
I'll keep your loving near
And now I've finally found my way
To lead me down this lonely road
All I have to do Is follow you
To lighten up my load
You treat me like a rose
You give me room to grow
You shone the light of love on me
And gave me air so I can breathe
You open doors that close
In a world where anything goes
You give me strength so I stand tall
Within this bed of earth
Just like a rose
And when I feel like hope is gone
You give me strength to carry on
Each time I look at you
There's something new
To keep our loving strong
I hear you whisper in my ear
All of the words I long to hear
Of how you'll always be
Here next to me
To wipe away my tears
And now I've finally found my way
To lead me down this lonely road
All I have to do Is follow you
To lighten up my load
You treat me like a rose
You give me room to grow
You shone the light of love on me
And gave me air so I can breathe
You opened doors I closed
In a world where anything goes
You give me strength so I stand tall
Within this bed of earth
Just like a rose
And though the seasons change
Our love remains the same
You face the thunder
When the sunshine turns to rain
Just like a rose
You treat me like a rose
You give me room to grow
You shone the light of love on me
And gave me air so I can breathe
You opened doors I closed
In a world where anything goes
You give me strength so I stand tall
Within this bed of earth
Just like a rose
You give me strength so I stand tall
Within this bed of earth
Just like a rose
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so many tutorials 2 do..sianz..phy sux..e t'chers dun seem nice..den suddenly we've been thrown so many tutorials..haish..hmm..doing math tutorial..difficult w/o a graphical calculator..so sianz..lolx..nth 2 do so come post lorhz..haha..
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haha..so bored..nth 2 do...lolx..so post again..lolx..tink i left out smthng veh impt juz now..haha..been rather lonely lately, so ive been trying 2 make myself bz so dat i wun feel it..lolx..canoeing has helped 2 a certain extent..bt everytime i come back aching, da loneliness starts 2 creep bak i faster den eva..den i tink 2 keep myself bz, ive been bothering alot of ppl..sms's etc..lolx..so i would lik 2 use my blog 2 apologise 4 all e trouble ive caused, all e distress ive caused..haha..thanx 4 bearing wf mi!!haha..gr8 frens!!haha..*muacks* lolx..
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da wk started wif chapel as usual..but dis time it wasnt e t'chers dat sang..it was e students..lolx..e start of e wk was pretty relaxing..had e 1st canoeing trng on mon..pt!lolx..been a long time since i had exercised..haha..i tink it kinda almost killed mi..haha..hmm..push up, crunches, den went 4 a 800m run den did chin ups..went another 400m..den had circuits..lolx..tiring..haha..2 long nv work out le..haha..emphasizes on discipline 2..haha..welcome bak 2 ncc..haha..speaking of ncc, went bak 2 rv on tue..lolx..e t'chers were as usual..lolx..ms eu changed her hairstyle..lolx..couldnt find our new vp & congratulate her..haha..so sad..lolx..jj still owes mi 2 bucks..so long le..lolx..erm..e wk went by rather ok.wed was when we got our classes..lolx..im in sb3..lolx..same clz as charis & the yawn..lolx..still got buo wei..haha..e clz was pretty ok..din really get 2 noe every1..lolx..but dere was some1 who started getting on my nerves le..haha..aft contact time on wed, went 4 canoe water training @ mac..lolx..more trng den water..haha..pt, run, chin ups..lolx..onli abit of caonoeing..lolx..did e basic stroke tech 4 super longlarhz..arms ache..haha..den e seniors still play e name game..wrong jiu 1 set..lolx..finish le lik wanna die liddat..lolx..saw nj dere..den went home wif cs 7 shi wei..learn more abt nj life..haha..reached home at 845..super tired..haha..
slept surprisingly well last nite..prob was 2 tired..haha..2day woke up aching..again..lolx..reached sch @ 750..was supposed 2 meet the yawn & charis..but charis was lik so late..den deyong went 2 e hall "2 make new frens" den din meet mi in e hall..lolx..den reach e hall got a seat nxt 2 the yawn..den dere was a scgs gal nxt 2 mi..haha..charis finally came & sat in frnt of us & e 2 of them started tokin..den somehow i was introduced..lolx..told her my name was rj..den she ask y so weird..lolx..den i had 2 explain is sort form..lolx..found out dat she was frm vietnam, her name was feng..lolx..she seems lik a nice gal..haha..den we tok abit..lolx..she showed us smthng she did wif her file.."red, blue gold, watch it unfold"..lolx..
was walkin 2 lt1 4 econs..den i act lik i interesting in her, den keep looking out 4 her..den charis said dat i was hittin on her..noooo!!!!lolx..im nt..haha..shes been lik saying dat 4 e whole day..lolx..so i played along lorhz..haha..e day was quite farnie..lolx..wif caleb makin a joke outta everthing..lolx..
gtg..lolx..hope 2 noe feng betta..haha..den mayb i'll hit her..oops..i meant hit on her..haha..bb...
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dis happened so suddenly..i oso dno y..din u promise..i could still rmb..when u said u might shift home..i was so scared..scared dat u'ld leave mi..scared dat u'ld b so far frm mi..u reassured mi..promised mi..dat u wun eva leave mi..u held mi tightly..and gave mi ur word..haiz..now u're gone..without a word..y miz u do dis 2 mi..i miz u so..haiz..came back frm overseas missing u..hoping 2 c u..who would ve expected..dis 2 happen..
haha..many things ve happened dis past few mths..17 mths 2 be exact..dun ask mi how many days & how mant hrs..i've been 2 distraught..not even sure of e date u said it was over..many happy experiences we shared..occasional arguements, but we made up quickly..i din expected things 2 end dis way..nobody expected it..lolx..
i still rmb how we started..it's still so vivid..lik onli ytd..u described urself as being so happy..dat dere was somebody who cared so much abt u..e times we spent 2gether, u were mostly happy..i could still rmb, i little kiss frm mi on ur forehead & u would be so happy..haiz..bu zai yu tian chang di jiu..zhi zai hu cheng jing yong you..xie xie ni rang wo cheng jing yong you ni..
since u're gone, i guess dere's no pt in dwelling in the past.."i try & try 2 4get u gal, but its juz so hard 2 do"
haiz..i can onli wish the best 4 u now..now dat u're not by my side..lolx..
i ain't christian but u r..so here, im gg pray 4 u..hope dat lord would bless u..
dear lord, i wish dat u could take care of her 4 mi..bless her in wadeva she does & help her in her journey..i pray lord, dat she will bewell..w/o mi by her side, i pray dat she will b well protected..by both u lord & by e nxt guy in her life..and of course her family..i pray dat she would not fall sick so often or get injured..i pray dat lord, u guide her thru her life & dat her "blur-ness" & ignorance would be a blessing 2 her..i pray dat she finds a betta guy den mi who can treat her betta den i did..i wish her all e best in her life, & i pray lord, dat she does ve e best life wif u watching over her..
hmm..am i supposed 2 say "amen"?i mean i'm nt christian & would it b rite?lolx.. i juz wish e best for u..take care of urself w/o mi by ur side..all e best..
when u're ready, den mayb, u can slowly explain it..i wanna noe e truth..i might hurt i noe..but i wanna noe if u'll still lurve mi tmr morn..
izzit cuz u dun lurve mi anymore? or e circumstances dat forced dis?dats all dat i would lik 2 noe..i'll try 2 4get u..but its juz so hard..haiz...p.s.i cried myself 2 slp dat nite..e 1st time i've cried in a veh long time..
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haha..ytd went out e whole day wif e ac gang..lolx..lj & jj were supposed 2 come..but they bang seh..as usual..lolx..tink i shldnt ask jj out anymore..keep bang seh..lolx..wtf..lolx..during dinner, mi, lq & jx were @ wm de fdcrt..den we were waiting 4 dis seat..den finally they left, den we were lik standing dere waiting 4 e cleaner clean it up..den dis f***ing uncle super thick skin..den come sit down..we were lik all staring @ him..den he pretend nv c..den keep asking his wife come sit..lolx..i tink his wife saw us larhz..den keep dun dare come over.but e f.... uncle keep calling his wife over & pretend nt 2 c us..lolx..den we keep staring @ him bt he keep calling his wife over..lolx..his wife was super pai seh i tink..dun dare come..haha..den us, being nice ppl, decided dat, if he wan so bu yao lian, den jiu let him sit lorhz..lolx..da ren bu ji xiao ren guo..haha..den we ended up in kfc..haha..
den at nitex went downstairs meet my meix..collect funfair ticks..lolx..den ended up spending lik 2 hrs tokin 2 her..haha..tok frm psch to sec sch 2 jc life..haha..we juz went on & on larhz..haha..den all of a sudden is 11 liao..lolx..started drizzling..lolx..mayb lao tian c we tok 2 long le..remind us go home..haha..aniwae, it was nice larhz..had a really long tok..haha..long time since i toked 2 somebody 4 so long le..haha..sry meix, ve 2 put up wif mi 4 so long..haha..thanx 4 tokin oso..haha..i somehow feel happier..lolx..eva since e u noe wad..lolx..ty..haha..
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yoyoyo..been a bz wk..haha..the wk started wif e 1st chapel session of e yr..haha..was quite interesting..haha..de teachers sang!!haha..den their singing not bad oso..haha..erm..it oso marked e start of e 1st proper wk..lolx..started intro lecture..haha..was quite fun..we had lik a master time table den can go in any demo lecture..lolx..was quite slack..cuz e subjs dat i wanted was onli so many..haha..da lectures were fairly ez 2 ubderstand..haha..mainly started wif stuff dat we've learnt b4..haha..in btw lectures we went play ping pong..lolx...yet 2 go gym..mayb i'll try nxt wk..aft all, i paid e sports comp fees le..haha..da wk passed by quickly..lolx..with thurs being subj regist day..lolx..ended up wif pcme wif h1 econs..haha..mingle & cyx took h2 econs which was lik ..... couldnt come up wif words 4 it..haha..hmm..fri was e start of e lecture onli wk..had 5 lectures dat say..was already quite tired..wad if dere were tutorials?mayb cuz it was fri..haha..fri ended wif a bang wif "movie under e stars" or muts 4 short..haha..watched click wif my og..haha..abit disappointed cuz no stars..supposed 2 be in bball court..but was rainin..so ended up in lt4 instead..lolx..well..dat's abt all..haha...cant tink of anything else 2 write le..so.. i jiu ci ge bi..haha..bb..
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yoz..3rd day of orientaion..hmm..getting abit boring now..lolx..hmm..morn as usual started wif a tok..lolx..so slpy larhz..haha..tok tok tok..lolx..den in e aftnn went gaming..lolx..din feel in e moood 4 gaming..smthng happened last nitex..it relly upset mi..haha..aniwae..i was wearing lik dry fit..den if i get mud on it, its lik gg 2 diff 2 wash off.haha..hmm..we learn e couple dance 2..but i tnik most of us lik 4got it..dey 3 went by juz lik dat..lolx..nth much worth mentioning..lolx..hmm..
day 4..day 4 started of betta as dere was no tok..haha..as usual we went gaming..hmm..no mud games..but dere was water games..lolx..but din play mush..onli played lik 3 games..spent e 1st part of e dayrefreshing e dance..den went 4 cca exhibit..lolx..signed up 4 6 ccas..hopefully i can get in2 one of them..haha..signed up 4 soccer, bball, hockey, canoeing, shoooting & strategic games..lolx..no exp wad-so-eva..so hoping 4 e best..haha..den went great world 4 og time..lolx..juz eat..bowling & pool full..lolx..so din do much..
the day ended wif a bang at e campfire..nice programmes..lolx..everybody danced lik crazy..lolx..but my parents came 2 fetch mi..so i couldnt stay all e way 2 e end..left aft e official end.haha..well..dats abt it..got 2 noe some gr8 ppl..lolx..dis 4 days ve been fun..i guess now its back 2 studies..nxt wk got intro lesons..lolx..bb!!
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1 yr 5 mths..over?i dun understand why..i dun understand how..but din u ________u promised me you'll never let me go //* haiz..wadeva..wish u all e best..sry 4 being a lousy guy..
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hmm...1st few days in a new enviroment was rather fun..lolx..started off de 1st day rather weirdly as a matter of fact..haha..guess it was de new enviroment..coming into a methodist instituition..haha..juz wasn't used 2 it..lolx..dere was praying..(which im still nt used 2)..haha..hmm..1st day was rather interesting larhz..mainly eng here..nt lik in sec sch..haha..den many accents..dno if is fake de or wads..haha..hmm..learnt on e 1st day dat mon would ve chape..hmm..i tink it would be interesting..but y is it a muz?haha..i mean lik, i respect e religon & all..but i tink dat it shldnt b compulsory larhz..i mean, dere are other religons around..oh well..maybe i dno enuff abt it yet 2 make an objectie comment..haha..wait till i get e chance 2 experience chapel..den i'll come back wif a more objective view..haha..hmm..had a few toks 2 understand more abt e sch..lolx..
aft dat was fun & games...haha..my og, orientation group, was kinda weird..haha..i din lik noe anyone dere..so was quite reserved at 1st..but slowly warm up larhz..haha..my ogl's were quite cute..haha..esp kat..lolx..jk..but was quite farnie larhz..haha..den she super enthu..haha..onli 2day did i realise dat she was my clan leader..oops..haha..but she look lik 4e's anna..haha..1st day was nt da nuch fun larhz..during lunch canteen super crowded..haha..den still got verify data etc..lolx..
2nd day started off a little more slpy..haha..again had toks...lolx..i almost fell aslp..guess i din slp well last nitex..lolx..dis 2 days 6 den release..lolx..many mass rallies..lolx..cheering..all de ogls gg crazy..lolx..in fact almost everybody gg crazy..haha..hmm..2nd day we learnt the dance which was really fun..not..haha..hmm..den lunch..lolx..plenty of mud games 2day..haha..wif my ogls again gg crazy..lolx..kat!y r u so enthu?ask us roll in e mud join e other team foreit..haha..jk..lolx..played wif lots of mud..starch..lolx..quite fun..haha..the not so fun part was trying 2 clean up..haha..i lik got mud over mi..den they start 2 itch..den when they dry, they lik tighten ur skin..haha..went home spent quite long washing up, scrubbing my shirt & shorts..lolx..
hmm..so far, jc life has been fun..haha..look foward 2 e following few days..haha..hope e fun continues 4 e 3 mths..haha..
haha..aniwaes..sry if i offended anyone in any of my posts..i hope not..4 dis is onli my 2nd post..haha..will continue 2 update abt orientation..sat got campfire..haha..
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haha..1st post..lolx...juz created dis blog..lolx..so i tnk dere's nth much 2 write..lolx..hmm..recently been thru alot..haha..nice & not so nice experiences..lolx..been 2 bangkok & hokkaido dis hols..muz say it was quite fun..esp d exp in hokkaido..haha..sch 's re-opening soon..new sch, new enviroment 4 mi..haha..hope d orientation would b betta..lolx..no more childish games!!haha..quite tired of those actually..haha..hmm..new sch..i tink i'll look silly..esp if i muz wear shorts when da rest r wearing long pants..haha..muz stand out..lolx..hopefully not 2 much..haha..hm..wad else..lolx..recently got a new "gan mei"..haha..quite happy..lolx..someone else who can b dere 4 mi when i nid..haha..hmm..aniwae, xiao mei arh, i 'm sry..haha..been inruding in2 ur life alot recently..lolx..kept bothering u wif my sms's etc..haha..so sorry..thanx 4 putting up wif mi all dis while..haha..thanx 4 being dere 4 mi as well..haha..hmm..i tink dats abt all bahx..aft all..1st post..haha..nth much 2 say..lolx..will update abt my sch life in my new sch..haha..happi new yr everyone!!haha..
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