dis happened so suddenly..i oso dno y..din u promise..i could still rmb..when u said u might shift home..i was so scared..scared dat u'ld leave mi..scared dat u'ld b so far frm mi..u reassured mi..promised mi..dat u wun eva leave mi..u held mi tightly..and gave mi ur word..haiz..now u're gone..without a word..y miz u do dis 2 mi..i miz u so..haiz..came back frm overseas missing u..hoping 2 c u..who would ve expected..dis 2 happen..

haha..many things ve happened dis past few mths..17 mths 2 be exact..dun ask mi how many days & how mant hrs..i've been 2 distraught..not even sure of e date u said it was over..many happy experiences we shared..occasional arguements, but we made up quickly..i din expected things 2 end dis way..nobody expected it..lolx..

i still rmb how we started..it's still so vivid..lik onli ytd..u described urself as being so happy..dat dere was somebody who cared so much abt u..e times we spent 2gether, u were mostly happy..i could still rmb, i little kiss frm mi on ur forehead & u would be so happy..haiz..bu zai yu tian chang di jiu..zhi zai hu cheng jing yong you..xie xie ni rang wo cheng jing yong you ni..

since u're gone, i guess dere's no pt in dwelling in the past.."i try & try 2 4get u gal, but its juz so hard 2 do"
haiz..i can onli wish the best 4 u now..now dat u're not by my side..lolx..

i ain't christian but u r..so here, im gg pray 4 u..hope dat lord would bless u..
dear lord, i wish dat u could take care of her 4 mi..bless her in wadeva she does & help her in her journey..i pray lord, dat she will bewell..w/o mi by her side, i pray dat she will b well protected..by both u lord & by e nxt guy in her life..and of course her family..i pray dat she would not fall sick so often or get injured..i pray dat lord, u guide her thru her life & dat her "blur-ness" & ignorance would be a blessing 2 her..i pray dat she finds a betta guy den mi who can treat her betta den i did..i wish her all e best in her life, & i pray lord, dat she does ve e best life wif u watching over her..

hmm..am i supposed 2 say "amen"?i mean i'm nt christian & would it b rite?lolx.. i juz wish e best for u..take care of urself w/o mi by ur side..all e best..

when u're ready, den mayb, u can slowly explain it..i wanna noe e truth..i might hurt i noe..but i wanna noe if u'll still lurve mi tmr morn..
izzit cuz u dun lurve mi anymore? or e circumstances dat forced dis?dats all dat i would lik 2 noe..i'll try 2 4get u..but its juz so hard..haiz...p.s.i cried myself 2 slp dat nite..e 1st time i've cried in a veh long time..

♥ you and i both loved

i'm mr huang. according to someone.
and apparently i have 1001 friends.
and they love "taste from the orient"
but normal people call me ruijie. or rj.
was born on 7th may.
18 years wasted.
was part of mayflower primary.
transferred to pps.
pps-cheetah 3m,4l,5k,6l,
rvhs-centaur 1/2h,3/4d,
acj-erif-salamander 1sb3/ as before
was a member of rvnc and ac guitar
horoscope is taurus
blood type is O i guess
msn me at thedevilawakens@gmail.com


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