我猜不透不猜透
和你背对背的走
原来怪我没有
没有爱情的天分
你才要走
我想要学会自我催眠
痛觉会少
一些潜意识作祟想着想到失眠
我躺在没有你的房间寂寞更加明显

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2dae was a boring day..lolx..nth much..lolx..meow meow kept playing wif her phone..haha..i agree wif chipz..lolx..her phone become her bao bei liao..lolx..so jealous..haha..jkjk..dun take mi seriously..lolx..hmm..2dae veh lonely..haha..went home drenched..all cuz of jeffrey...stupid..lolx..2dae was an uneventful day..lolx..so nth much..haha..
long time recommend vid le..here's a promo vid 4 a bk..
http://youtube.com/watch?v=wIDRtEOLWiU
is "i believe u"..is quite nice..lolx..4 those interested, can go on9 read..
http://www.goodybooks.com/ibelieveyou.htm

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lolx...2dae..ppl dun believe dat xj's my sis..lolx..kip qn-ing mi..lolx..y dun u guys believe?haha..hmm...2dae..meow meow got her phone bak..lolx..congrats meow meow..lolx..2dae..bought a new myuk wallet..haha..2dae..realised dat big font veh argly..sry laurel..but lik nobody complain liddat..so i shld use bak e org font..lolx..or mayb i try arial..or courier..or georgia..or lucida grande..or times..or trebuchet..or verdana..or webdings..
lolx..which is nicer?haha..
hmm..2dae..had some fun..lolx..i gotta say sry 2 xj 2dae oso..haha..wad else..lolx..lik nth much le..haha...vote 4 ur fav font..haha..i tink i nth say le..bb..

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2dae laurel told mi my font veh small..veh diff 2 read..lolx.so now i use bigger font try try..lolx..but i tink normal de nicer..lolx..dis 1 so big so argly..lolx..den my post super long, take up alot of space..haha..hmm..2day meow meow's phone kena confiscated..lolx..so sad..she shld pay attention during chapel & assembly..lolx..sry meow meow..dun cry kkx?haha..
hmm..ytd xj sent mi a msg.."u seem 2 b rather happi..its gd if u r..so stay happi.."dat was e crux of it larhz..lolx..(xj, r u happi dat i mentioned u?)lolx..hmm..ve i been truly happi?lolx..im nt sure..lolx..its been a rather emo period 4 mi recently..lolx..im nt sure if i've been truly happi..lolx..blow came aft blow..lolx..its onli when u lose it, u realise u nid it..so ironic..happiness..lolx..happi or nt, i dno..but 1 thing's 4 sure..it's nice 2 ve frens dat i can tok 2..lolx..esp xj & my meix..lolx..kip disturbing them..kip tokin 2 them..lolx..thanx guys..lolx..oso muz thank e rest out dere..haha..hope i'll find true happiness again..hope it wun b long..lolx..
aniwae..peeps..xj's nt my gf..i noe we hang out often..but we're totally unrelated kkx?dun kip askin mi or givin mi dat look..lolx..i dun wan explain animore.lolx..
recently got ppl say i 发花痴..lolx..i tink abit de true..lolx..tink cuz i emo..den my behaviour abit weird..lik veh despo..lolx..sry!!bt im nt kkx..lolx..(i mean nt despo)..haha.shldnt b liddat anymore..shldnt b emo anymore..shldnt b lik a b*****d & kip foolin ard anymore..lolx..shld return 2 my norm self..wish mi luk!!haha..i'll try my best..no more gg gaga over pretty gals..no more emo..haha..i shall try veh hard!!haha..
wad else..lolx..sun went 2 ms zeng's house..tinked we messed up e place..haha..combo wif ych..合股..ended up osing $ on blackjack..lucky nt much..nxt time shld play myself.haha..den got play majong..lolx..long time nv play le..lolx..aft dat go westmall makan..lolx..alle nj noobs..tokin abt nj stuff..so bad..lolx..nxt time wun go out wif them le..haha..hmmm..tink dats abt all le bahx..我就此搁笔..
--trying 2 b less emo

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hmm....been alone dis few days..haha..xj's been bz wif mrc & her own personal probs..so shldnt 烦her..lolx..aot of ppl tink we 2gether..lolx..clara tinks i lik her..lolx..so do many other ppl i tink..haha..mayb dat's wad happens when u hang out 2 often..haha..wadeva..lolx..ytd play bball..2v1..haha..found xj's psp cover by chance..lolx..中马票都没有那么准...lolx..y cant i b lucky in other things..haha..hmm..wad's dere 2 post..lolx..oh ya..tessa say i 发花痴..im nt ok..lolx..i onli find her chio...haha..nv 发花痴..haha..izzit wrong 2 c chio bu?haha..i told meow meow dat i found some1 prettier den her..haha..either she veh kpo or she jealous..kip askin mi who..lolx..i dun tink she's jealous..lolx..soo...infer urself..haha..i nv say anythng..lolx..cnt scold mi..lolx..sianz..2day suppose go zhiji house..but dno y all of a sudden he say dun go..lolx..den now i stuck at home..so sianz..done until qn 15 of chem tutorial on atomic structure..lazy do e tys qn..lolx..i dun understand math..did e 2 gp qn..looked @ econs qn..will do it on mon..lolx..so sianz..haha..hmm..smthng wrong wif my cbox..damn..y my blog always got prob de..lolx..i tink is cuz i switch 2 e google thingy..b4 dat no prob larhz..lolx..so sad..haha..i tink my post 2dae veh random..lolx..nvm..i random can oso type so long..pro..haha..mayb cuz i bored..lolx..lalala..hmm.reently got alot of ppl ap mi on9..lolx..dat dae i msg xj..she nv reply mi..all of a sudden she came on9 reply mi..b4 i could react she jiu off9 le..lolx..den 2dae..tessa come tok 2 mi..tok half way, she haha..den she nv reply le..den she off9..lolx...y ppl so bad de..haha..aniwae..thru dat conv..i realised dat got alot of gals lookin at cute guys larhz..lolx..no crime..but e way e gals do it..lolx..i tink more 发花痴 den guys..lolx..k larhz..i tink nth much 2 write le..lolx..end here bahx..bb..
--hoping 2 get 2 noe her..haha..

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haish..im so jealous....y e gay get so nice clz..lolx...got chio & cute de gals..haha..so jealous..http://ac-sexyalway5.blogspot.com/
haha...sianz..my clz dun ve..haha..k larhz..got cute de..haha..die le..i in ac cnt 混 le..lolx..nobody wan mi..so sad..haha..how how how..den jae if li haiji & lee zhi ji come..i even more gone..all e gals "siam" far far..haha..sianz..lolx..
--jealous

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today...change song..still frens..haha..many ppl ve told mi..cnt b 2gether nvm..still can b frens..but i dno how..u've been trating mi rather coldly..haish..& i still dno y..i guess dere r 2 many unsolved qn marks 4 us 2 b frens..mayb nt now..mayb in e future..lolx..hope so..lolx..
hmm..2day attempted do phy..realised i noe nuts abt projectile..die..lolx..den did chem..some qn dno..lolx..
wad else..2dae..went 2 read ppl's blog..realised im losing touch..i read their blogs & go huh?i seriously dno wad they tokin abt..lolx..mayb i dno wads hapenin in their lives now bahx..not many share wif mi..lolx..if is lik my blog liddat still can follow..but lik yini liddat so cheem..make mi totally lost larhz..make mi feel lik im losin touch wif them..lik we 越来越陌生..i dno if blogger can read dat..is in chi..erm..lik gettin more 2 b strangers..lolx..dun wan!!haha..
dis sat..got zp house..den sun ms zeng house..i tink i can onli go 1..so sad..i wanna play majong!!haha..sianz..i tink nth much le..lolx..oh ya..meow meow, i lurve u 2!!haha..jk..i noe u dun wan mi..haha..

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happi cny every1..lolx..hmm..dis new yr...rather boring lehz..lik always..noactivities de..juz sit down listen 2 adults tok..lolx..dis yr collectd quite abit of $..feels gd 2 ve $ again..haha..hmm..dis cny..well, at least it has put mi bak on tokin terms wif my dad..haha..nth much say le lehz..haha..oh ya..sry xj..kip disturbing u..lolx..shld nt b so emo..read e sun times horo part..say i shld put down my past & move on..den e cny show say i shld conc on studies dis yr..lolx..well..happi cny!!haha..

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ytd i was usng e comp..den my mum asked mi 2 turn it off..i asked her y she allowed my sis 2 use it but nt mi..she said i be no rite 2 compare wif her..well..guess she was refering 2 my results..sry 4 gettin 11..sry 4 nt getting 6..no it doesnt matter if i tried my best, no it doesnt matter if i gave it my all..i din get 6, i got a 11..im sry i din get 6..i did my best but it doesnt matter..
i rmb during prelims i got 9..it was e 1st time i got below 20 in my whole sec3-4 life..e 1st thing dat my parents did was 2 ask mi y i failed my hcl..its weird u noe..how u guys nv seem 2 c e gd side..no praise no nth..juz concentrating on e 1 imperfection..nt caring abt all e hard work put in..
i spend alot of time mugging 4 e o's..put in effort..u guys allowed my sis 2 play comp in e nxt rm..which was a gr8 help & really did nt distract mi..haish..all dis makes mi wonder if i shld try my best 4 anything at all..moral of e story..if u'r nt perfect, u suck..if ppl ever tell u dat its ok as long as u tried ur best, its a whole load of bullshit..
haish..i nid u now..y did u leave mi..

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hey guys..dun wry abt mi kkx..im resigned 2 fate..lolx..its juz my fate..its my life..lolx..my dad hasnt spoken 2 mi since fri..well, dats e way my family is..times mag called 2dae..mayb i shld expain y..sent in e edusave form, but edusave no $..lolx..so they return ask mi send cheque..den my mum, lik put mi in a spot..say dun wan order le..nvm if i taken e bk.."juz return larhz!a bk onli wad"..k lorhz..win liao lorhz..e one in a spot is mi oso nt u..den 2day times call again ask mi send cheque..told my mum muz send in lorhz..she say dun wan..ask mi tell them cancel or ask them speak 2 her..den i say hang up liao..she say wait 4 them call again lorhz..i go dig up e no 4 her 2 cal, she say "im nt gg 2 call them..wait 4 them 2 call again" win liao lorhz!!is i ying fu wad, nt u...wtf..everytime liddat ..put mi in a spot..sux...haish..guess its my life bahx..my life sux den wad 2 do..haish..resign 2 it lorhz..
hmm..2dae vdae..happi vdae guys!!haha..2 all e couples out dere, enjoy e swtness while it lasts..of course i hope it lasts 4 eva..but nth is 4eva..haish..
dis valentine's spend alone..so sad..she left mi..haish..den suppose go out wif class..den i pon trng..den all e gals ps..2nd time le..wtf..will nv eva go out 4 clz outing le..sucky..haish..
vdae e mood 4 lurve..e whole sch deco until veh nice..lolx..but abit depressing 4 mi..lolx..wadeva..den got alot of choc & flowers & balloons flying ard..got some choc frm clzmates..thnx guys..haha..den ppl in my clz now kip disturbing mi..wad e..haish..wadeva..lolx..erm..nth much 2 say le..happi vdae guys!!

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hey guys..dun wry abt mi kkx..im resigned 2 fate..lolx..its juz my fate..its my life..lolx..my dad hasnt spoken 2 mi since fri..well, dats e way my family is..times mag called 2dae..mayb i shld expain y..sent in e edusave form, but edusave no $..lolx..so they return ask mi send cheque..den my mum, lik put mi in a spot..say dun wan order le..nvm if i taken e bk.."juz return larhz!a bk onli wad"..k lorhz..win liao lorhz..e one in a spot is mi oso nt u..den 2day times call again ask mi send cheque..told my mum muz send in lorhz..she say dun wan..ask mi tell them cancel or ask them speak 2 her..den i say hang up liao..she say wait 4 them call again lorhz..i go dig up e no 4 her 2 cal, she say "im nt gg 2 call them..wait 4 them 2 call again" win liao lorhz!!is i ying fu wad, nt u...wtf..everytime liddat ..put mi in a spot..sux...haish..guess its my life bahx..my life sux den wad 2 do..haish..resign 2 it lorhz..
hmm..2dae vdae..happi vdae guys!!haha..2 all e couples out dere, enjoy e swtness while it lasts..of course i hope it lasts 4 eva..but nth is 4eva..haish..
dis valentine's spend alone..so sad..she left mi..haish..den suppose go out wif class..den i pon trng..den all e gals ps..2nd time le..wtf..will nv eva go out 4 clz outing le..sucky..haish..
vdae e mood 4 lurve..e whole sch deco until veh nice..lolx..but abit depressing 4 mi..lolx..wadeva..den got alot of choc & flowers & balloons flying ard..got some choc frm clzmates..thnx guys..haha..den ppl in my clz now kip disturbing mi..wad e..haish..wadeva..lolx..erm..nth much 2 say le..happi vdae guys!!

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magic show!!
http://youtube.com/watch?v=tScm-eZInBE

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3rd post 2dae...woots..haha..here's e lyrics 4 e song..against all odds..
How can I just let you walk away, just let you leave without a trace
When I stand here taking every breath with you, ooh
You're the only one who really knew me at all
How can you just walk away from me, when all I can do is watch you leave
Cos we've shared the laughter and the pain, and even shared the tears
You're the only one who really knew me at all
So take a look at me now, 'cos there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me, just the memory of your face
Take a look at me now, 'cos there's just an empty space
And you coming back to me is against all odds and that's what I've got to face
I wish I could just make you turn around, turn around and see me cry
There's so much I need to say to you, so many reasons why
You're the only one who really knew me at all
So take a look at me now, 'cos there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me, just the memory of your face
Take a look at me now, 'cos there's just an empty space
But to wait for you, well that's all I can do and that's what I've got to face
Take a good look at me now, 'cos I'll still be standing here
And you coming back to me is against all odds
That's the chance I've got to take, oh, oho
Just take a look at me now

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go take da test..c if u're f50 or predator..im f50..woohoo..
http://www.adidas.com/campaigns/verticals_football/content/football.asp?adidas_cc=com

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got back my o lvl results on fri..pleased wif almost all my subj..got a2 4 both my math..quite gd le..din xpect..lolx..but perhaps e gr8test shock was a b4 in eng..i couldnt believe it..sux..now my l1r5 is 11..haish..upset..seriously sux..all e people ard mi hugging & crying..lolx..while i was all alone..lost..lolx.."How can you just walk away from me, When all I can do is watch you leave" u left when i nided u e most..haish..I wish I could just make you turn around , Turn around and see me cry , There's so much I need to say to you , So many reasons why"aniwae..dun digress.bak 2 e main pt..my o's..ya..dere i was..feeling lost..doing nth..feeling abit hurt..all e other subj din matter cuz of e glaring b4!!haish...well..at least now i dun ve 2 wry abt whether 2 apply 4 nj or nt..dats a bright side..when i got home, htings got worse..my parents gave mi "disappointed look" the feeling of "u did not try ur best, did not study"..wadeva i do cant seem 2 pls them..be it 11 pts 4 o's or 9 4 prelims..haish..muz i b perfect?do we really live in a world where trying ur best is nvr enuff?if we try our best & dun achieve e best, does dis mean dat we're condemned & we suck?haish..
--trying ur best is nvr enuff if u dun acheive perfection..

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against all odds..my blog song..here's e mv..ff version..rox..but u ve 2 turn up e vol..http://youtube.com/watch?v=j2PTiQyUa5U

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changed song..again..lolx..hmm..damn..been feeling sick..ytd & 2dae..kip feeling lik vomitting..lolx..die..haha..super uncomfortable..haish..den nobody care..lolx..make mi so sad..lolx..my mum even scold mi..ask mi i dun lik go sch den dun go..dun waste $..lolx..sick oso nobody care..haish..
tmr getting o lvl results..nervous..i noe i shldnt b..but it cant be help..feeling vexed..lolx..wrying abt 3 things..
1.if i dun do well..(lik most ppl)
2.i do average..den nt sure if putting nj or nt..if put nj 1st choice den cnt get in..will ac still wan mi?lolx..
3.if i do well..will i wanna go nj?
haish...so sianz..how how how?
tmr 1030 release..do wads ne?lolx..

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lolx..change song again..i tink i keep changing song..but is dependent larhz..haha..depend on mood..haha..if wan e previous song can tag mi..haha..i change bak..lolx..

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ytd was sianz..haha..trng lik a hiong larhz..haha..hold push up so longs..den super pain larhz!!!wtf!!lolx..super super pain larhz..lolx..was walking 2 e mrt station at abt 7+..saw pauline & cl..learned dat pauline noe abt "her"..was shocked..din expect "U"2 let anybody noe..much less dis way..haish..wad does dis mean?i dun understand..part of mi is disappointed..part of mi is shocked..i mean did u tell ur whole clz or wad?!?wad does it mean?wad does it signify?it kinda hurt mi again..haish..
2day mass pe wanna die..ytd trng den 2dae cldnt run well or di push ups..haish..so sads..so pain..lolx..den canoeing e diet..wad de..i dno if i'll b following it..lolx..aft all, i wun grow fat..haha..cny coming up le..lolx..can i eat??haha..
tmr is x-country..i gg slack..big walk..cnt run le..aniwae, run 4 yrs l..dun wan run le..lolx..so sianz larhz..haha..fri o's r coming out..ppl worried..i dno if i'll b staying..so sad..lolx.so confused..haha..hmm..hmm..shld go do hw le..bb..
spiderman3 trailer!!http://movies.yahoo.com/feature/spiderman3.html

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ah lan hua mu lan..http://youtube.com/watch?v=mjrDoQCygc4

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ytd was an eventful day..went jj funfair..which was nt really fun..haha..play bball..go look ard..saw many ex clzmates..saw my meix..haha..i spent all my ticks on food larhz..den rides oso nt fun de..haha..hmm..oh ya..xj got mi a vdae pressie!!yeah!!so happpy..although is use my money larhz...haha..den u got her 1 oso..haha..aft dat went 4 sji @ andrew's place i tink..at newton..jx crash..den mi, buowei & him were late 4 lik half an hr..haha..sry guys..lolx..reach dere oso nth much do..nobball crt no nth..lolx..it was sji w/o e i..haha..ya larhz..they got play whacko larhz..which is lik so lame..everytime orientate jiu play..so i din play..haha..sit down dere play cards..aft dat go e carpark play soccer..lolx..e kids dere veh cute..haha..hmm..den kena scold by e sercurity guard..haha..go bak eat abit..tok abit..lolx..quite sianz larhz actually..lolx..den went 7-11 get drinks & chips..lolx..den juz slack all e way lorhz..till lik 10 liddat..haha..den they wan take photo..den end up wif ppl in e pool..den buowei phone spoil..lolx..so sads..lolx..so in e end left abt 1010 liddat..was supposed b home by 11..but was late..reach ard lik 1120..lolx..so tired..lolx..so dat was pretty much it..lolx..juz hope dat any further outings wun b so sianz..lik get a bigger place larhz..haha..oh ya..sry clara!!haha..

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today was friday..last day of e wk..nxt wk o's results come out le..many r nervous..haha..i dno..lolx..hoping 2 drop chi..lolx..dno wad my results will b lik..lolx..somehow i dun feel nervous..but abit uneasy cuz it means i ve 2 choose soon..2 stay or 2 go..lolx..love ACtually..haha..hmm..2dae take bus home wif jun..tok alot..laugh alot..haha..lik veh long nv laugh so much le..lolx..she says im swt..lolx..so many ppl say im swt..really?!?lolx..thanx guys..im flattered..lolx..*muacks*lurve u guys!haha..aniwae, sry salamnder..din go og outing..lolx..im broke T.T but i'll get my pocket $ tmr!!haha..still o jun 27 bucks..lolx..den vday buy choc 4 ppl..lolx..how?will i b broke again?haha..wadeva...haha..been missing frm canoeing 4 quite awhile..missed e entire wk cuz of mc..lolx..1* course starting le..but i dun ve!!haha..cuz i ve liao!!haha..lalalax..hmmwad else 2 say??lalalax..ya..2day saw ych...she wear bp u..look super noob!!haha..i wanna change u oso..but nobody wan shorts..haha..so sianz..lolx...k bahx..tink nth else le..bb..haha..

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i'm mr huang. according to someone.
and apparently i have 1001 friends.
and they love "taste from the orient"
but normal people call me ruijie. or rj.
was born on 7th may.
18 years wasted.
was part of mayflower primary.
transferred to pps.
pps-cheetah 3m,4l,5k,6l,
rvhs-centaur 1/2h,3/4d,
acj-erif-salamander 1sb3/ as before
was a member of rvnc and ac guitar
horoscope is taurus
blood type is O i guess
msn me at thedevilawakens@gmail.com


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