Wednesday, August 29, 2007 @20:40:00
finally another post. hahax.
slack week man this week. monday lecture only day. tuesday pink slip. today bmtc, so only had pe and pw. tomorrow teachers' day celebration.
friday no school! whee. zzz... feel kinda bored. hahax. cause got so many breaks but no options. nowhere to go, nothing to do. except for study. lolx.
went to bmtc tekong today. an
interesting experience. day started and everybody looked damn different with different bags. hahax. iseem to be the only one changing bag every other day in class. hahax. followed by pw, where we "discussing" about op. followed by pe. finally we could decide on something. hahax. wow. played soccer. but had missing participants. lolx. quite funny. hahax. i "scored" one. lolx. don't know if that was counted. lolx. played overtime. we then had the luxury of a long break before 1110 where the tekong people were released from class. lolx. at last the tme came and we went on the bus to tekong. zzz.
as we walked into the ferry terminal,
thoughts flooded my head. soon. very soon. i'll be walking down this path, with everyone around me strangers. what awaits me? dozen of stories about how army life isnt as tough as it was drawn out to be has done little to calm my nerves. i have this fear. fear of venturing into the unknown. fus it is yes, but at the same time scary. being thrown into a new environment. out of your comfort zone. yes i've been thrown out of my comfort zone quite a few times. but nothing would compare to what ns brings. lolx. kinda scared. hahax. don't laugh. i can hear the snigger's.
ferry ride to tekong was quite fast. about 5 minutes? 2 years down the road and it'll be the longest 5 minutes in my life. lolx. picked up our goody bag at the ferry terminal and proceeded to the lecture theatre? there we were made to wait for other colleges.
(pj had short skirts. heehee. dammit. i sound perverted. hahax.) and there was this presentation. about army life etc.. wasn't exactly useful. not much about experiences. just how the centre operates. the sharing didn't shed much light on tekong however. soon, i would be standing here in the same place, taking the pledge. the pledge to serve the country. hahax. after all that, the tour started.
first stop, imt range. everyone was so excited. zzz. brought back
fond memories. my 4 years in ncc. hahax. was reluctant to go in the first place. let others try. but once i went up, i stayed up, loading and reloading like nobody's business. lolx. was quite fun. quite alot of memories. lolx. guess my skills learnt in ncc would serve me well in ns. lolx.
next stop, the bunks. visited the bunks quite nice. hahax. followed by them showing us a full pack, giving us a break down of the items in it. lolx. interesting. we then learnt about face paint. like quite a number of them were quite enthusiastic, trying it out. lolx. next, proceeded to food! hahax. had a look at the ration packs issued. had a taste too. hahax. wasnt great, but wasnt bad either. lolx. and last stop was introduction to soc. hahax. everyone was falling asleep. lolx.
that was all for tekong. interesting experience. gained an insight into army life, but there are so many mysteries. guess i'll find them out myself. what army life is really like. lolx. hope i survive. hahax. im kinda scared. for one my fitness sucks. well, i can do everything except run. i suck at running. the further i run, the slower i get. i've got thalassaemia minor (huh? what's that? go read.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Thalassemia) and anemia. blood disorder. not bad enough to rob me of sports. but puts me at a disadvantage. lolx. what a bother. another reason. im afraid of the new environment. afraid of the things lying in the dark, in the unknown. the new strangers i'll meet, the new things i'll do. i don't know. im kinda anxious, afraid.
afraid of the unknown. i may seem nonchalant on the outside, but then again, doesnt everyone mask themselves with a mask?
im scared. damn scared.
but i will survive. lolx. at the presentation, they said this. "girls, don't think you're not involved and don't go why am i sitting here? you girls have an important part to play. to support the men while they are here. all our men have a women supporting them. be it mother, grandma, girlfriend, wife..." hope i will have a hand to squeeze if i need. lolx.
-afraid of the unknown
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yipin: how to smile when not happy sia. hahax. so fake.. lolx..
annabel: thought fuhua is chinese school. lolx. oh.. you mean
that night.. hahax, ok.. lolx..
cat: if something can be decided then go lorhz.. lolx..