i trusted you and gave you the password. i don't know why though. am i really such a nice guy? should i continue to be such a nice guy? it seems as though it's not getting me anywhere. being nice usually means that you're forgettable. only when in times of need then you get called upon. kinda tired. tired of being thrown around like a rag doll. should i stop being nice and fight for what i want? what i think should happen and what i think is right? this would make me more enemies. already there are people who don't really like me. right now it doesn't matter cause, i am who i am and those people don't mean anything to me. they are not important to me. but what if. what if i changed. "But would it set me free, If I dared to let you see, The truth behind the person, That you imagine me to be. Would your arms be open, Or would you walk away" -stained glass masquerade. would those around me. people i care for. would they hate me if i changed. turned into a person they don't recognize.

i don't have much talents. i don't do well in sport, have no musical talent, neither am i good at my studies. i am not particularly rich, neither am i good looking. im just.. the kid next door. opportunities come far and between. should i grab those rare opportunities, or should i just be a nice guy and watch them slip right through my fingers? haish. it is my life after all. should i live it the way i want? the question is can i afford to..

人生的烦恼实在太多，想要说的话说也说不完。只想抛开一切什么都不去管。人与人之间的感情实在太复杂了。我式着去理解但始终无法掌握。生活就是这样的吧。无法理解，无法掌握。也许或者有可能。我们只不过是真的在演一场大戏罢了。就像沙斯比亚所说的。"all the world's a stage and all the men and women are merely actors"
i find myself dislocating from this play. slowly but surely drifting. it's so difficult. acting. i don't want to be part of this play anymore. i don't want. somebody save me..
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恨得多 爱得少 只想越跳越疯 越跳越高 把地球甩掉

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我再也不要 再也不要 委屈自己一秒

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丢掉手表 丢外套 丢掉背包 再丢唠叨

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野心大 胆子小 跳舞还要靠别人教

恨得多 爱得少 只想越跳越疯 越跳越高 把地球甩掉

一颗心噗通噗通的狂跳

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我再也不要 再也不要 委屈自己一秒

一颗心噗通噗通的狂跳

一瞬间烦恼烦恼烦恼全忘掉

我甩掉地球 地球甩掉 只要越跳越高

我甩掉地球 地球甩掉 只要越跳越高


come on!


一颗心噗通噗通的狂跳

一瞬间烦恼烦恼烦恼全忘掉

我再也不要 再也不要 委屈自己一秒

一颗心噗通噗通的狂跳

一瞬间烦恼烦恼烦恼全忘掉

我甩掉地球 地球甩掉 只要越跳 越高

我甩掉地球 地球甩掉 只要越跳 越高



come on !jump!jump!jump!jump!jump!jump! jump!
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im drifting.. drifting..

♥ you and i both loved

i'm mr huang. according to someone.
and apparently i have 1001 friends.
and they love "taste from the orient"
but normal people call me ruijie. or rj.
was born on 7th may.
18 years wasted.
was part of mayflower primary.
transferred to pps.
pps-cheetah 3m,4l,5k,6l,
rvhs-centaur 1/2h,3/4d,
acj-erif-salamander 1sb3/ as before
was a member of rvnc and ac guitar
horoscope is taurus
blood type is O i guess
msn me at thedevilawakens@gmail.com


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