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Friday, August 24, 2007 @19:26:00

hmms.. how to start..

*im sleepy tired and depressed..

this week. was kinda bad. lolx. tiring and depressing week. week started with pe when my group couldnt get anything done. lolx. sianzzz. we were playing like bonding games and our group couldnt complete the tasks. quite funny actually, the way we did things. hahax.

*you guys are all so busy..

tuesday was ok i guess. nothing much happened. it was wednesday that was bad. chem test. i studied. i did notes. i did my tutorials. i thought i could do the questions. guess i thought wrongly. kwokie had to speak to me. lolx. dammit. that day's guitar. g3 only had 4 people. me, cynthia, nat and daniel. wow. kinda nice cuz we were sitting outside the corridor playing. hahax. quiet. peaceful. and the song we were playing was damn nice. hahax. almost like a lullaby.


*standing alone, struggling to keep afloat..

thursday. the super depressing day. kwok had to talk to me about my results. getting from bad to worse. struggling to survive. asked me if there was anything wrong. dammit. and i thought i could pass the test. haish. guess not. you know, it's so frustrating. when you see people in class. not doing tutorials, not paying attention to them and not listening to lectures. but somehow or rather they still manage to do better than you. haish. so sianz. well, maybe that's what they mean by talent. something i have yet to find. hope i do. hahax. i need to start mugging really hard. i don't want to get retained. i desperately need help for math.. but like nobody to help liddat lehz.. lolx..
well, the less depressing part of the day was towards the end of guitar. when nat told me i could use the school guitar.. yea!! hahax..at least my hard work of somethings have been paying off. but with that guitar comes more pressure sia. i need to live up to expectations, practice harder and improve on my sight reading. must not let nat down. hahax. must not let myself down.

*i need help. i need someone to talk to. but..

friday, the week finally ends. gotta rush alot of stuff. at least next week's slacker. lolx. gotta plan out my study timetable from now till prelims. lolx. haish. work harder. i just don't feel i've put in enough effort. i want to, but i keep getting distracted. i need somebody. a group, a partner. but everybody's so busy. so look's like i've gotta do it on my own. i can do it. jiayoux!
well, when u've reached rock bottom, there's only one place left to go. up.

it's ok.. i can always count on myself.

think that's about all. shall blog some other day..

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me!: new problems keep surfacing..

ris: hahax. i din notice that. i've been using those since a long time ago. lolx. and screw the chem test. lolx. <3 oceans

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