stop being so wistful. wishful. wasteful. whatever. it's super depressing you know. you are one of those that care about me. but yet when you're like that i cannot do anything. feel so lousy you know. useless. you asked me so many times not to worry, but how not to? u're my meix. lolx. you're one of those rare few that care and i really hate it when people like you get upset and i can do nothing. haish. yes i don't know who he is, yes i don't know what it's like for you so yes im in no position to say such stuff. i can only hope. and pray. that you don't get too tied down by it. don't get too bothered by it. don't get too affected by it. i can only hope.

well, this holiday has been wasted. i made a timetable. a strict one that i was supposed to follow. but as usual, i didn't. help. i keep slacking off at the wrong time, keep doing things im not supposed to do even though i know the consequences. chances of being retained. i can't pass my math even if my life depended on it. this leaves me with physics and chem. both just keep fluctuating. i don't know what i can do anymore. i seriously need help. zzz.. i need to buck up. i keep saying that but to no avail. haish. help!!! i know i can do it if i study. but i just cannot. why? am i that weak mentally that i cant put my mind to it? that's the saddest thing ever man. or maybe. i dunno. im just living day by day with no purpose, no motivation. since coming to jc, my life has been so monotonous. everyday the same and it's so tiring. same cycle over and over again. zzz.. leaving me with nothing to look forward to and just live day by day. and look. half my jc life is over. provided i don't get retained. haish. sianz.

♥ you and i both loved

i'm mr huang. according to someone.
and apparently i have 1001 friends.
and they love "taste from the orient"
but normal people call me ruijie. or rj.
was born on 7th may.
18 years wasted.
was part of mayflower primary.
transferred to pps.
pps-cheetah 3m,4l,5k,6l,
rvhs-centaur 1/2h,3/4d,
acj-erif-salamander 1sb3/ as before
was a member of rvnc and ac guitar
horoscope is taurus
blood type is O i guess
msn me at thedevilawakens@gmail.com


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