Saturday, October 13, 2007 @20:33:00
what is honesty? lolx. i checked up the meaning at dictionary.com. here was the definition.
honesty:
1. the quality or fact of being honest; uprightness and fairness.
2. truthfulness, sincerity, or frankness.
3. freedom from deceit or fraud.
the definition of being honest is easy to find. but the courage and price to be honest i don't know. hahax. being blunt and straight
isn't exactly the best way to survive in this world. people hate you blah blah blah. it takes an amount of
charisma to manage to pull stunts like this off. i unfortunately am not one of them. hahax. i know im not well-liked in class. oh well. i can live with it. lolx.
"Put your actions and conflicts you might have, in perspective. Would all this still matter in a day or a month? It will help you decide which fights are worth the blood and tear, and when you would be better laying off. Do not believe all the advice you receive, but neither allow yourself to ever be ignorant." - Tan Sherwayn. president's scholar 2004.
certain things in life are
too small to matter. so what? so what if im
not well liked, not popular. so what if people
hate me. people are entitled to the own views and opinions and i respect that. i
don't really mind if people don't like me. im not a religious person, but i have faith and i have trust that
things will work out for me one way or another. human politics, relationships, studies, CCA's. things are sometimes too complicated to really comprehend. i recently talked to a friend of mine. ok, two. two separate issues. but both had the same thing in common.
bothered by things too difficult to truly understand. frustrated by things that happen. but i believe. i believe that things will work out. we just have to let it be.
"Put your actions and conflicts you might have, in perspective. Would all this still matter in a day or a month? It will help you decide which fights are worth the blood and tear, and when you would be better laying off." certain things are worth laying off. im not to bothered. things which are important.
friends who are important. true friends. those that stay by your side and listen to you talk nonsense.
some of them need me now. it's my turn to listen to them talk nonsense. they are my friends. they're what's important to me. hoping to get a job during the holidays. or maybe go some home or something to help out. these are things that would matter.
from young my mum taught me.
if you have no fault, would people have reason to scold you? (如果你没有错，人家会有理由讲你吗？) it is a very self-reflective statement don't you think? that makes you sit down and think. yes i've received criticism lately and it appears that some are unhappy with me. well, i
apologise to those who i have offended in my life, be it in my blog, life, speech or whatever. it's just me. that's what i am. the way i say things and do things make people pissed. my parents often told me, 你这样讲话出去迟早被人打. (i'll end up being beaten up cause of the way i speak). oh well. i guess it's one of my many many flaws, prices to pay for being imperfect. so
to those i have offended, i hereby sincerely apologise for my speech and actions.
self reflection as it turns out, is quite an
interesting to do. it makes you think, think
alot. what have i done wrong? why did this happen? why did that happen? im not talking about reflections like those in I&R or any other project similar things. im talking about just sitting down. or lying down. and thinking. quietly. it's
enlightening and interesting to discover many new things. both about yourself and the world around you. then maybe. just maybe. you may discover and realise the true meaning of life and what it's all about. scientist took a long time to realise that the world is round. they took some time to realise that the world revolves around the sun too.
two things. we take for granted and as common knowledge. took time for genius's too discover. took technology so long to prove.
maybe. just maybe. self reflection can take me somewhere too.
guitar practice is coming up soon. haish. haven't played those pieces in a long time. getting
rusty. dammit. should start playing soon. during promo's have only been doing random strumming. just to relax. time to get serious and hardworking and play those pieces. jiayoux.
ineedyou.puttingfaithandbelieveinlifeandhopingthatthingsworkout.
manythingsidon'tunderstand.hopfullysomegenius'souttheredo.