Friday, March 14, 2008 @16:51:00
updated on wednesday. here i am again. thursday. was quite an interesting day. went gyming in the morning. didn't do much. wanted to die after running just one click (omfg i need to get back my fitness).
somehow. ended up having lunch with two people. one of which was quite scary cause of the emo-ness. no idea why. lunch was an interesting affair with anything meaning no beef. wow. i didn't know that. hmm. shall ask the second time the next time you say anything. hahax.
ended up watching leap years with them. weird combination. leap years was draggy. but it was thought provoking. li-ann (wong li lin) got married to a guy she met 4 times and each time on the leap year? i was like wtf? that's true love? i seriously have no idea. do i even understand what love is all about? is it important. many interesting quotes on the movies.
"it's better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved before." think it was Shakespeare.
is it really better to have loved and lost and end up a broken mess? what is it like to love in the first place? the movie talked about how we want to be with someone just for the sake of it. falling in the idea of falig in love rather than falling in love itself. confusing? not really. i guess it's human to want to feel that way. that's what makes us different from other beings. emotions.
so is it alright for me to open myself up and end up hurt? i don't know. i feel like i've made a stupid mistake. happened on a leap year or should i say day. i don't know what i've ended up with. what i've lost and what i've gained. perhaps it was dumb of me. to open up. been watching gundam 00 lately. interesting. part of me wants to fly with the meisters and not care about anything. rejecting humans cause we're just to ugly and difficult to understand. fighting to change the world. "in three words i can sum up all that i've learnt in life: it goes on." i don't remember who said it. but it goes on. life. i guess i should just throw aside these things. and let life carry me through. to wherever. following the wind wherever it brings me.
changing lives. i wanted to help. go do ocip or something. but i realised something recently. i don't have to part of something big. like the meisters fighting to eradicate war. or go for some ocip to help the poor kids. i am helping to change lives now. some that have always been there but i've never noticed. i got an sms yesterday. "if i had not been with you guys, i would have cried the entire afternoon. thank you." or something along that line. it was. touching. in a sense. to realise tat you have helped someone. perhaps. i should start small. and worry about the big things when i grow older. and more matured. till a level where i am capable of comprehending. then i can help.
♥ you and i both loved