Friday, April 04, 2008 @20:51:00
quote of the day."Give me the strength to accept the things I cannot changeCourage to change the things I canand the Wisdom to know the difference."things is life has been pretty screwed up recently.studies. people. family. many many little things just snowball up. the frustrations just keep getting worse and worse. things going from bad to worse. i just don't know how to deal with all of it.people around just don't seem to understand. or perhaps i don't give them the opportunity to. opening up. talking. just not me. what goes on in my life, nobody knows. except for me. it's so lonely. walking down the road. and no matter how often you walk down the same path, you can never get used to it. i'm desperate. desperate for someone to understand me. someone whom i can place 100% faith in and just talk. perhaps in today's society, it's difficult. people all put on a mask. it's just a matter of how thick your make-up is. but i'm holding on. on faith. on belief. that the world is not so twisted.even places which i once thought i belonged now looks foreign to me. the ensemble has decided to get jackets based on majority vote. they cost over 40+. together with the attire for concert, it would cost over a hundred. sadly there is no opt-out option for the jacket. the reason i got was what was the most disappointing. "it's a cca thing and unless you're not part of the ensemble"given without thought, spoken without hesitation, came out with out consideration. majority vote yes. but have they even put any thought into the people who cannot afford it. the people who have to fork the money out themselves. people who have to sacrifice in order to pay for it. even the govenment has medifund to help those who cannot pay medishield. at least the citizens are not forced into buying medishield without second thought. "it's a cca thing and unless you're not part of the ensemble". if that is how the ensemble works. if that is how it does considers other people's situation. i think i have to re-consider my position in it."Give me the strength to accept the things I cannot change
Courage to change the things I can
and the Wisdom to know the difference."i need all three now. desperately.====================================boulevard of broken dreams.-----------------------------I walk a lonely roadThe only one that I have ever knownDon't know where it goesBut it's home to me and I walk aloneI walk this empty streetOn the Boulevard of Broken DreamsWhere the city sleepsand I'm the only one and I walk aloneI walk alone I walk aloneI walk alone I walk a...My shadow's the only one that walks beside meMy shallow heart's the only thing that's beatingSometimes I wish someone out there will find me'Til then I walk aloneAh-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ahI'm walking down the lineThat divides me somewhere in my mindOn the border lineOf the edge and where I walk aloneRead between the linesWhat's fucked up and everything's alrightCheck my vital signsTo know I'm still alive and I walk aloneI walk alone I walk aloneI walk alone I walk a...My shadow's the only one that walks beside meMy shallow heart's the only thing that's beatingSometimes I wish someone out there will find me'Til then I walk aloneAh-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ahAh-ah, Ah-ahI walk alone I walk a...I walk this empty streetOn the Boulevard of Broken DreamsWhere the city sleepsAnd I'm the only one and I walk a...My shadow's the only one that walks beside meMy shallow heart's the only thing that's beatingSometimes I wish someone out there will find me'Til then I walk alone...
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