found my long lost lil' sis! haha. she's a nice girl. haha. things have been good for me recently. found a great friend and a new lil's sis. hope things get better from her. it's almost like watching the sunrise =)
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another week. another boring week. haish. so sian.
monday was starving as usual. tuesday was boring. went to look abit at guitar on wed and thurs. juniors are doing fine i guess. they can somewhat play together already. not that bad. they're progressing faster than we did. the wonders of SYF. friday was tiring. played from 2-430. tennis, frisbee badminton. went to queensway. saw a nice bag. but. $60. cannot afford. contribute to the buy rj a bag fund! haha. oh well.
speaking of frisbee. im missing out on alot of awesome action while im sitting here rotting away. the tournement is now on. and i so want to be a part of it. but i made a bad call. so i guess i just have to deal with it. tssk.
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a young life was taken on thursday. quite sad. at such an age. set me thinking about how fragile life is. how it is so easily extinguished. how we never know what will happen. cherish those around us. protect those we love even if they dont feel the same about us. cause you never know what will happen next. rest in peace.
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not feeling very well right now. perhaps cause of playing in the rain yesterday. anyway. the obsession is dieing down. it's no longer an obsession. but. i still find myself thinking about you. perhaps it's the way you look.
perhaps it's your smile.
perhaps it's your eyes.
perhaps it's the way you make my heart skip a beat.
perhpas it's just you.
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this week. boring sums it up. all revision.
monday: boring.
tuesady: boring.
wednesday: boring. owned by time assignment.
thursday: useless half day.
friday: tennis. and now my arm hurts. oh and chriswini's birthday.
saturday: gp mock.
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i need some reprieve like seriously. quite tired and sian alr. haish. oh well. i guess that's the life of a levels. and now imeem is screwed up. damn.
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old but nice skin. =)
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i shall call you cookie monster from now on! hahax. though you don't see me. but. hahax. hopefully. the obsession wears off and i can concentrate on mugging.
the hub opens till 7 tmr. whee!
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weekly update on my life.
monday was a school holiday. whee!
another week. another load of work. have been mugging in the hub alot recently. yay. but might not be enough. mum complain that i don't study which is so unfair cause she doesn't see it. and says i don't. but my sis can be staring at the com and be called mugging. whatever man.
and i wonder why i don't like to come home. i wonder why i choose to mug in hub not home.
seriously.
getting the ultimate addiction again recently. part of me regrets not continuing with it. if not i could be playing now. dammit. can only randomly throw around now. so not satisfying.
pe shifted up to 2pm. so now we're doing tennis. interesting. wrist strain. i should remember to wear proper shoes the next round. my white shoes are so worn out. and once again we got a casualty. apparently xuewen fell. didn't even know about it. hahax.===================
life without a cca is weird. hahax. part of e feels missing. but now i guess it's time to mug. and mug hard i shall try. been thinking about my regrets of jc life. can name a few now.
- not continuing in canoeing.
- not continuing in ultimate.
- not signing up for ocip.
- not paying attention in math lecture.
- not been more active in school.
- not taking bio and taking physics instead.
- not getting an A for my chinese.
- not being braver for you.
eh. im not sure if i can think of anything else. this is about it for now. perhaps i will think of more soon. till then i'll be mugging for my mock econs tomorrow. plenty of mock papers coming up!
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u have no idea how often i think of you.miss you lots!
acge.
u're missing in my life.
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was never a great fan of ai. but this is nice.
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im nothing more than an emotional wreck right now. how many times have i made the same mistake. i keep telling myself not to. but it happens. wrong choices wrong words wrong decisions. im just a major mistake.♥ you and i both loved
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screw off buggers who leave anonymous tags. losers who have to hide behind an alias.
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no words can describe my feelings now. im going on a downward spiral. a free fall. once again, my life is in the dumpster. im emotionally wasted.
im playing this game called life. im taking a gamble. and i seem to be losing.
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week two has been pretty sian. been very sick for the whole week.super tired and zapped. struggled to get out of bed each day. and i couldn't really mug. significant (or not so significant) events that took place this week.
caught the enrichment lecture on "the dark continent" on tuesday. was okay i guess.
HECG talk on wednesday.
handover on thursday.
nothing else i guess.
handing over was weird. or should i say retiring. i still don't really know what my cca really means to me or meant to me. it's a weird feeling. well. all the best to the next batch. 
i've made alot of mistakes recently. ones that i probably will never be able to atone for. mistakes that make me seem like a complete idiot. wait. i always do.
i've made alot of mistakes recently. ones that i probably will never be able to atone for. mistakes that make me seem like a complete idiot. wait. i always do.so much time spent in the ensemble. and i have yet to sort all my thoughts out. i still have a draft waiting for me to complete. i don't know when i will be able to though. haish.
well. on a brighter note. i got this!
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5 more weeks to prelims.
i need to mug.
this is what my outlook is like now.
bleak.
it's not helping that YOU've become an obsession. and that i've presented myself to be nothing more than an idiot. damn. perhaps that's all i really am.
i don't know how to move on.
i don't now if i can get to where i want to go.
im not ready for this.
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