week two has been pretty sian. been very sick for the whole week.super tired and zapped. struggled to get out of bed each day. and i couldn't really mug. significant (or not so significant) events that took place this week.
caught the enrichment lecture on "the dark continent" on tuesday. was okay i guess.
HECG talk on wednesday.
handover on thursday.
nothing else i guess.
handing over was weird. or should i say retiring. i still don't really know what my cca really means to me or meant to me. it's a weird feeling. well. all the best to the next batch. 
i've made alot of mistakes recently. ones that i probably will never be able to atone for. mistakes that make me seem like a complete idiot. wait. i always do.
i've made alot of mistakes recently. ones that i probably will never be able to atone for. mistakes that make me seem like a complete idiot. wait. i always do.so much time spent in the ensemble. and i have yet to sort all my thoughts out. i still have a draft waiting for me to complete. i don't know when i will be able to though. haish.
well. on a brighter note. i got this!
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5 more weeks to prelims.
i need to mug.
this is what my outlook is like now.
bleak.
it's not helping that YOU've become an obsession. and that i've presented myself to be nothing more than an idiot. damn. perhaps that's all i really am.
i don't know how to move on.
i don't now if i can get to where i want to go.
im not ready for this.
♥ you and i both loved