staying at home is becoming a torture for me. nag and nag and nag and nag and nag. staying in school more from now on. shall stay later so that i don't need to see them. losing motivation for everything. going for lessons is no longer something i look forward to.
staying in school till late is nice. at night. things are much quieter. there're less people. allows me to destress.
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-still thinking of you.
♥ you and i both loved
life has been one complicated mess so far. and i need help for math. seriously. i'm afraid that i can't do well for phy and chem too. how!! jialat. i need to mug. mug real hard! i need tuition. math tuition. sorry for letting those who had faith in me. i didn't do well enough.
honours night rehearsal was a bore. it's going to take such a looonnnngggg time! hai. sian. 436 people take. take until when?? sian. still got many many speeches.
finally went to run on monday. run abit only want die already. lousy. i need to get fit.
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why. why must this happen. i had no idea what happened. i don't know how to deal with it either. it's so complicated and it hurts that you're so distant. i don't know what to do now. what to think. i'm just praying. praying for peace. to be able to think clearly. this is not the time for me to get emotional. i cannot afford it. maybe life's just like that. one big test. one after another. don't know if you'll be reading this. but the fact that u feel guilty. feel pressurised makes it worse. i just hope. that we get our thoughts sorted out. and maybe. it won't be so difficult to leave if i had to. im praying i don't. time doesn not heal wounds. it leaves ugly scars. i need you. to soothe those scars. hai. complicated.
the stars mean hope. for hope is always shining. and i believe in it. don't ask me to stop folding. cause i won't till i'm done.
♥ you and i both loved
Today is a winding road
Thats taking me to places that I didn't want to go, whoa
Today in the blink of an eye
I'm holding on to something and I do not know why I tried
I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation; what I'm feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder
Today is a winding road
Tell me where to start and tell me something I don't know, whoa
Today I'm on my own
I cant move a muscle and I cant pick up the phone, I don't know
And now I'm itching for the tall gras
sAnd longing for the breeze
I need to step outside, just to see if I can breathe
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain,
Yeah I'm walking on a tightrope
I'm wrapped up in vines
I think Ill make it out but you just gotta give me time
Strike me down with lightning
Let me feel you in my veins
I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain
Today is a winding road
That's taking me to places that I didn't want to go, whoa
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
Oh baby bring on the pain
And listen to the thunder
♥ you and i both loved
post prelims is like. sian. i totally screwed it. i could do them. but why? i don't seem to understand why i did so badly. hai. something's wrong. i need to find out what. shall talk to kwok on monday. dammit. 2 months. work hard. i shall do my best. nothing worth gaining was ever gained without effort. - Thomas Roosevelt.
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it's been two weeks. something almost happened. im glad it didn't. i don't know how i would have dealt with it. i hope it will never happen ever again. on the bright side. we survived it and came through together. im glad. thanks for everything.
♥ you and i both loved
im feeling strangely emo. i have no idea why. sudden lost of motivation. don't feel like going to school. don't think i'll be prepared for A's. just want to sleep it away. i guess im just afraid. afraid to be a big disappointment again. i was in the O's. now come the A's. fear. fear of the unknown. im struggling right now. to contain everything inside. life is like one big mess right now. so large. it's one of those moments where u feel small and insignificant. and i need to get over it. haiyo haiyo. life is so complicated. i must get over this.
missing you.
♥ you and i both loved
holidays are boring. no outings. cause nobody organises them. we can't rely on our class rep and our usual enthusiastic pet is back in vietnam. so i suppose we'll be rotting at home once again. oh well. just like june. perhaps i shall start mugging. just perhaps. i've printed out physics. that's a good start. but meanwhile. zzzz.
♥ you and i both loved