Saturday, July 25, 2009 @16:25:00
boat package over. many people injured. kinda strained my back as well. went to the MO. got 6days heavy load and RMJ. even better. physiotherapy. i don't know how or why i got it. lol. he asked my to bend over to check my back. then the next thing i knew, he said he's putting me on physio. i didn't imagine it to be so serious. it doesn't really really hurt right now. so i also don't know. physio at 3 sir. uber far. at least can book out. yet to contact them to make appointment. don't know how it will turn out. lol. sian. have to book in today for demo tmr. aiyo. burn my weekend. sian la! hais.
i splurged today. spend $300 on a psp. wow. how spontaneous can i get.
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Sunday, July 19, 2009 @16:26:00
here comes my usual rant. booking in blues. monday and tuesday. boat package. have to carry the stupid boat and obm. lack of sleep. so heavy. getting myself wet. sian. every week i don't feel like booking in. book out timing seems so short. i don't see 2 days passing so fast in army. oh well. suck thumb. hai. i'm waiting for your reply! it's been 4 long years. and you're still ignoring me. over what i have no idea.
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Sunday, July 12, 2009 @18:12:00
another post to rant. rant rant and rant. that's the only thing im good at i suppose. it's just that army makes you think about your life more than anything. probably cause it's a mental strain. i'm not to sure either. i was reading my old blog posts and tags. and i realised how some people grew so distant in a matter of months. people whom you could talk to about anything. people who would initiate conversations with you. now don't even talk. which really sucks cause this is the time when u need them the most. when life gets hard. i slowly feel myself losing contact from the outside world. everything now is about the army. where's my life man. i want it back. i want my friends back too.
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@14:27:00
army is slowly but surely driving me nuts. i don't know how to explain the mental part of it. i keep dreading booking in even though it's almost 3 months. i really don't know how to survive 2 years. i hate army life. 4 years in ncc taught me that already. all that regimentation and thing. they say army is supposed to turn boys to men. i don't know how true it is. i feel more like a small kid then i ever have been. afraid of so many things. afraid of what's to come. dreading booking in. don't know if one day i would have an emotional breakdown. im trying to hang on. trying. but a small kid in the wilderness can only last that long alone.
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Saturday, July 11, 2009 @00:50:00
alone again (naturally)In a little while from now,
If I'm not feeling any less sour
I promised myself to treat myself
And visit a nearby tower,
And climbing to the top,
Will throw myself off
In an effort to make it clear to who
Ever what it's like when your shattered
Left standing in the lurch, at a church
Where people 're saying,
"My God that's tough, she stood him up!
No point in us remaining.
May as well go home."
As I did on my own,
Alone again, naturally
To think that only yesterday,
I was cheerful, bright and gay,
Looking forward to, but who wouldn't do,
The role I was about to play
But as if to knock me down,
Reality came around
And without so much as a mere touch,
Cut me into little pieces
Leaving me to doubt,
All about God and His mercy
For if He really does exist
Why did He desert me
In my hour of need?
I truly am indeed,
Alone again, naturally
It seems to me that
There are more hearts
Broken in the world
That can't be mended
Left unattended
What do we do? What do we do?
(instrumental break)
Now looking back over the years,
And what ever else that appears
I remember I cried when my father died
Never wishing to have cried the tears
And at sixty-five years old,
My mother, God rest her soul,
Couldn't understand, why the only man
She had ever loved had been taken
Leaving her to start with a heart
So badly broken
Despite encouragement from me
No words were ever spoken
And when she passed away
I cried and cried all day
Alone again, naturally
Alone again, naturally
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one of the songs from ice age 3. from coy cohesion.
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Thursday, July 09, 2009 @20:32:00
new beginning. the end of CEC. start of BPC. going to be very very tiring and frustrating. but no choice. oh well. reshuffled again. new platoon. said goodbye to some old friends. making new friends. hoping i can survive.
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