Sunday, July 12, 2009 @14:27:00
army is slowly but surely driving me nuts. i don't know how to explain the mental part of it. i keep dreading booking in even though it's almost 3 months. i really don't know how to survive 2 years. i hate army life. 4 years in ncc taught me that already. all that regimentation and thing. they say army is supposed to turn boys to men. i don't know how true it is. i feel more like a small kid then i ever have been. afraid of so many things. afraid of what's to come. dreading booking in. don't know if one day i would have an emotional breakdown. im trying to hang on. trying. but a small kid in the wilderness can only last that long alone.
♥ you and i both loved